“Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!” Psalm 27:14
God’s perfect timing never ceases to amaze me. For several years I have had an unquenchable desire to purchase any and every faith-based book I could get my hands on. The result of this desire is evident upon entering my study. Over-burdened book shelves groan under the weight of my ever-increasing collection.
Titles from many of the great teachers such as Oswald Chambers, Timothy Keller, C. S. Lewis, and Dr. David Jeremiah sit patiently waiting their turn. I devour some of these books the moment I lay my hands on them. Some are started and then set aside until another time when their message speaks more clearly to where I am in my faith journey. I never really know what draws me to finally open a book that I’ve had for years. But once I do, it always seems to speak directly to my current need. This leads me to believe that the Holy Spirit is at work in this.
Recently I was invited to a small group study. The topic for discussion was C. S. Lewis’ “Mere Christianity.” This was one book I had not already purchased. The reason for this was because I had tried reading “The Screwtape Letters” several years before and had a terrible time following Mr. Lewis’ writing style. But encouraged by the invite to a new group, I purchased the book and dug in.
Much to my surprise, I found his style sheer genius this time around. I could scarcely put the book down! And that’s when God’s perfect timing became evident. I have been taking some classes to become a lay counselor. It’s been very rewarding, yet challenging work. Much of what I’m studying is opening my own old wounds. It’s been healing, but it’s also brought me face to face with some of the areas in my life that still need God’s refining fire. Areas such as pride, selfishness and…well…you get the picture.
And then I read it. On page 81 of “Mere Christianity” was a love letter from God to me. This is what I read: “When a man is getting better he understands more and more clearly the evil that is still left in him. When a man is getting worse he understands his own badness less and less. A moderately bad man knows he is not very good: a thoroughly bad man thinks he is all right. This is common sense really. You understand sleep when you are awake, not while you’re sleeping. You can see mistakes in arithmetic when your mind is working properly: while you are making them you cannot see them. Good people know about both good and evil: bad people do not know about either.”
That one little paragraph almost brings me to tears. It was as if God was saying, “Little one, don’t get discouraged. You are growing and learning. This is all part of the process. Trust me. I will not stop helping you until we get it right. I will complete the work I have begun in you. Be brave! We can face all of this together. And please always remember, I love you!”
Have you discovered some hidden flaws in yourself recently? Maybe God has a love letter for you too? You can trust Him and His perfect timing!